Ultimate Destiny

Life Being 21

2012-01-02T17:00:00.000-08:00

Life's difficult at 21 and I believe it is set to be harder after 21. I will face those difficult moments with courage and optimism for my parents have showed me in these 21 years what makes a real person who champions every problem with ease.

Just a thought of the day, being 21 isn't too bad. Maybe a little bit of maturity is expected but that does not impede one from having fun and being the person one is. I've always believed, look the world on an optimistic point of view rather than a pessimist, things will look better. I have failed in many things that I've done but I never cling on my old failures for there are so much other great things to cherish.

I do hope that 2012 will fly as fast as 2011 did. To be honest, I need to move on to a different phase of life, life after graduating. As much as I enjoy being an undergraduate, I'm excited for the other diverse things that I could do with my life while making difference to lives of many others. The excitement of not knowing what's coming makes it more thrilling than ever. But for now, I have to finish my studies and do my best while waiting for time to past.

With about 6 more days or so left for school to start, I can safely say that I've done practically nothing significant this entire break and it feels so damn good. Yes, it was a great break for doing nothing and lazing around. It's a shame not being able to spend some of my great youth years in Malaysia where my heart is at but United States of America is not too bad either provided I have to be born rich. That is not the case.

Hope everyone keeps their spirit clean, positive and alive! Life begins at 21, so said by some.

2012

2011-12-21T18:46:00.000-08:00

Hello,

I've not been updating my blog as regularly as I should. But here we are at the very end of what has been a crazy year. Now, would be a good time to reflect upon the wrongs and goods one has done. I am thankful for all that has taken place. I am happy with what I have to date. I do wish for a better grade for some courses but I have to be satisfied considering the time I allocate for studying.

This Fall is the best semester I have ever experienced in PSU. I enjoyed everything , even the classes. Three weeks of winter break- and I've decided to stay put in State College for a good rest. 2nd half of Summer and winter break are the two best times of this year when it comes down to doing nothing and resting.

Fall 2011 highlights:
1. Took Chinese class
2. Became a TA
3. Went to Chicago despite hectic academic life with 18credits
4. Malaysian Night 2012 prep and "sponsor hunting"
5. Micrb416 and Micrb421W : Best Biotech classes taken so far.
6. All the potlucks, parties, movies, etc...

I hope 2012 would be just as awesome as 2011. Have a great break and let me wish you Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!

Don't forget to add me on Linkedin! Networking at its best.

Hi.

2011-10-25T19:42:00.000-07:00

Hey. This blog is not dead. I can assure you that.

Wishing everyone a Happy Deepavali. Will regularly update my blog on Fall 2011 this coming winter break. Stay tuned readers, if I have any left, after leaving my blog unattended for some time.

Love life, stay happy and live to make a difference.

Fall 2011

2011-09-03T11:15:00.000-07:00

Hello. I'm back to States. Journey back here was tiring. I was welcomed to States by flu and cough. I've been going to classes for two weeks now and everything seems fine for now. I reckon that's because I've not taken any exams yet. I quit my old job and now am working as a TA for Micrb107. I was lucky to get the job, to say the very least. This new job is definitely one that I enjoy. I enjoy teaching although the first day was a little nerve-wrecking with 25 people staring at me in silence. But all is well now. I'm feeling much more comfortable and able to ward away the nerves.

Hoping for the best this semester. Good luck all!

Hopping on the Ride - Part 2

2011-08-15T10:29:00.000-07:00

One month or so holidays may feel really short, but I tried to make full use of it. And when it's time to say goodbye, it's not too upsetting because I know I've done things that I would want to accomplish during a short break. Yes to good rest, yes to good food, and yes to good company. I have a busy semester ahead. Sometimes it feels foolish to say the previous statement that I just said, because there was no one semester that I was relaxed. Leaving that aside, getting back to a mundane routine it's not all too bad. If one can find joy through friends, environment, etc, I see little problem in routinized lifestyle.

Somebody told me not to feel guilty for not visiting some people that I wished to meet because they have helped me so much during my school years. Sincerity wears off the moment visiting becomes a social obligation. But, if I really did spend more time in Seremban, I would have visited them.

With a new job(will update on this one soon), things should change a little bit. (I will have my weekends for myself this time around). One year did fly, why wouldn't two years right? I will probably cut down travelling as money would be needed for specific purposes. So, got to find something to do at State College during winter break, perhaps a job. This time around, it's definitely not as nerve-wrecking as it was last year. As I'm putting a bottle of pickles and chili sauce into my luggage before zipping it off, I can't stop thinking how my cooking will taste since it's been a while since I last held a knife and a pan.

I hope to do better in school and able to embrace college life as I would have if I'm in Malaysia. My goals in life were never to impress people but to make myself believe I could do things that I thought I couldn't. That pretty much explains my impulsive nature. It's 1.24a.m now and a day from now, I will be leaving. It's funny an early sleeper like me, have time to blog at this "wee" hour. All of a sudden, everything needs to be appreciated. Even the current silence at home except for the occasional barking sound of neighbor's dogs.

This ride that i hopped is hoped to be fruitful and would continue bear memories that shall be cherished forever.

Life

2011-08-09T21:39:00.000-07:00

I saw the picture below on one of my friend's Facebook wall and thought it would be a good material to share.

Umm... over-analyzing things. Something to work on.

Unsure

2011-07-20T09:38:00.000-07:00

In life there's many things that we can be unsure of. I've looked at my courses for my Fall sem. I am not sure whether it's a good decision or bad to put in so many courses in one semester.

How well or how poorly I will do in the courses is really uncertain. I can only keep my fingers crossed and hope I did not put too much burden on myself by taking a few extra courses. I have my reasons for this crowding of courses in a semester. It's just I am unsure whether it will all be worth it in the end of the day. The struggle, the commitment and the time that I am willing to give for the courses- will they pay off?

While the uncertainty remains, my spirit to complete these courses are high. To think about it, everything in this world is uncertain. No humans can predict the future, unless you're an astrologer or some character from Heroes. So, it's just an issue that I have to get over. In short, I worry too much sometimes, urm... correction; all the time actually. Haha. Goodnight.

Solitary Blue by Cynthia Voigt (1983)

2011-07-04T20:42:00.000-07:00

"Poor Melody, he thought for the last time, watching her walk around the house and away; she never knew what the real treasures were."

That's how Cynthia beautifully ended the novel. This book is a good read because it has an element of human touch and senses to it. The story mainly revolves around a child whose parents are divorced and he was torn apart to choose between his neglecting mother and occupied father. I enjoyed killing time with this book Now, I need hunt for another book that is equally worthwhile to read this summer. I shall go for a more profound name in young-adult writing this time around.

Besides reading, I've also traveled and met quite a number of people. With the remaining holidays, I'm looking forward for more outings/visiting with my family and friends. INTEC is probably next. Got to go for now. Bye.

Summer Second Session

2011-06-29T18:14:00.000-07:00

At: Hong Kong International Airport

Sitting down at Gate 32 at Hong Kong Airport with my laptop on my lap, I quietly and patiently wait for my next flight to KL. It's been a great adventure since last Saturday where I have traveled to New York and stayed in Constance and Gary's house. My stay at New York and strolling around NYC, to say it’s great it’s just an understatement. The long journey from NY is worthwhile because I managed to watch several movies that were on my to-be-watched-movie list. The landing at Hong Kong was pretty rough causing children on board crying and of course some were laughing. This laughing group of children was noisy all the way throughout the journey but they’re definitely forgiven on my part. They are just children and I don’t expect them to understand to keep quiet so as not to disturb others. I can’t wait to meet everyone back home. My feelings now is more like indescribable. Let me try though. It’s like happiness plus anxiety plus moderate excitement minus excessive worries. This trip back home is specifically made for my family to be honest. I can sense they wanted me to be back more than I wanted to be back just because during summer I wanted to work more and earn a little extra money. Then I asked myself, was I really homesick? The obvious answer that I got from myself was YES!

At: Home :)

So, because of me being homesick and my family wants be to be back, here am I on my laptop writing a new blog post at the very second day of being home. This approximately one year absence of mine may have changed a lot of things back home. But, I have not changed. I can say now I am starting to appreciate people around me more for who they are. Skype definitely made it all easier for myself who often think about home. I would definitely want to meet all my friends at their convenience. Visiting SBM and INTEC is definitely on the to-do-list before I get back to face a tough semester. I'm definitely watching a number of new movies in Jusco. Entertainment is much needed for its absence has been too long. Soon enough, my family and I are going on a vacation. My family deserves a break from the hassle and complications of life.

I have not been out specifically to any place yet, but I will soon be. Jusco sounds like a great place to start. I want to watch Super 8, Kung Fu Panda, and maybe Pirates of the Carribbean and many others! That's it for now and will write more as the summer passes by. See you readers.

Blessed

2011-05-25T14:01:00.000-07:00

Today, I'm extremely happy.

Expectation

2011-05-20T19:00:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone. How's summer treating for those of you in States? For those in Malaysia, is it holidays yet? I'm done with one week of Summer 2011 classes. It all went well. 1 week down, five more weeks to go. Not too bad. I am assisting a TA for Micrb 107 class and it is lot of fun to know all the lecturers and "back-scene" stories of the BMB department. Oh well, I expect a lot from myself this summer academically because I need to raise my suffering GPA. I'm definitely looking forward to get back home and take a decent break before it all starts again in the Fall.

I saw this status of my primary school teacher on Facebook and could not agree more. It says: Being happy does not mean everything is perfect. It means you've decided to see beyond imperfections. It is so true because if you're getting upset of one simple thing, it would be hard to be even happy. So just live happily no matter what.

I always believe meet expectations that is made by you, acknowledge expectations from others, don't expect much of others, but show respect and love to others, and most importantly, work hard to meet all the expectations made by you to achieve things that you want.

So who do you EXPECT will win American Idol? My guess for final two was right. Scotty is going to win based on my expectation. I would still prefer Pia Toscano standing on the finale stage but that's how things work. Remember, see things that are beyond imperfections! There are positive remarks for both Lauren and Scotty as well.They're both talented young kids. I will not take that form them . So, I'm excited for the finale next week. I need to study early for my test if I would want to watch the show peacefully.

Signing off from now. Wishing everyone a blessed holiday. The next update for this blog is hopefully when I'm back in Malaysia. I am glad when friends (who are not my followers) who read my blog, send me text messages saying how they feel about my writing. You guys who read are my motivation to keep writing in this space that has the tendency to be dormant during busy months. I appreciate you guys who're following my blog updates although all that I write is about my life.

Bye! Take care peeps.

A Day Well Spent at Philadelphia

2011-05-14T21:10:00.000-07:00

8.15am- Wayne picked me up at Parkway Plaza
9.05- Head towards Harrisburg after getting sandwiches for lunch from Darla
10.20-Took bus at the parking lot of Harrisburg Mall
12 noon ish- Reach Philadelphia
12-3.30- Spent time in the Philadelphia Museum of Art
3.30-4.30- Went to China Town. Ate at Malaysian restaurant, Banana Leaf
5.00- Headed back to 30th Street Station
6.00- Took bus back to Harrisburg Mall
8.15- Departed from Harrisburg to State College
9.30- Reach home

All in all, I enjoyed everything about today. It's a good start for a new semester. I would just like to thank Wayne for his company, his stories, his time, and his wisdom. I really liked the art displayed in the museum. I would attach some pictures of the fascinating paintings by some great artists below this post. I could not ask for a better deal, as the museum trip was followed by Malaysian food for dinner. Awesome. We managed to kill time unknowingly. We did have such a good time. Darla could not make to the trip for Nathaniel was sick. Hope he get's better. The fact Wayne has traveled 74 countries still amazes me. Wayne, make sure Malaysia is going to make it 75 countries for you!

This is one is by the great Pablo Picasso

This one is by Pierre.

The one above is my favorite, Liverpool from Wapping by John Atkinson Grimshaw

My second favorite, Portrait of Mademoiselle Legrand by Pierre-Auguste Renoir

This one appeared in Micro class, Gross Clinic. What a coincidence.

One Week Holiday

2011-05-11T20:14:00.000-07:00

So far, it's great to just to be able to do what I do best, sleep limitlessly. However, things are no longer as fun because I'm having this headache, flu and developing fever. I know something feels wrong with my body. I see it coming. Anyways, I can just be happy to the fact that my immune system is working fine.

I also got to watch a few movies so far. I bought a book and that would be my bedtime story for this lonely summer. I need to reflect all my doings this summer. I have made several good and bad decisions in my life. It's time to quietly think why I reacted in a certain manner towards certain things.

I watched American Idol today. Without Pia, it's a bit boring for myself. My personal favorite to win would be Lauren Alaina. Who should win from the 4 people left? James Durbin. He's been real consistent week after week. So, he deserves the title. I'm no longer excited about the show as much. I have a feeling I would switch from AI to X Factor US. Definitely can't do both.

I am thrilled for Phili trip this Saturday and for the summer classes to begin next week. Till then, goodbye. I'm back on facebook. Do PM me if anything comes up. See you guys. =)

Wrap Up

2011-05-06T22:38:00.000-07:00

This semester has finally ended. No sigh of relief this time because there is nothing to be relieved about after doing Micrb 202 final paper.

You know what, this semester seems to pass by really fast partly because of my work. What an experience it has been. Have been meeting with a lot of people from all sort of places.

Summer classes is going to start a week after next week. So next week is my only rest week before the routine begins again. I chose this path and I will not show any sense of regret, at least the ego in me would not allow me to do so.

I'm going to appreciate this coming break to just lay down and sleep. The feeling of not having an alarm set and just waking up to whatever time that you feel like is really deeply missed. That's what rest is all about to me. Give me $1000 dollars to travel next week and I will say NO! Lol. Yes, rest is of utmost priority now.

To all my friends going back to Malaysia have a safe trip! Have fun. Will join you guys soon. =)

Friends back home, wait for me... totally wanna do all things possible in one month. I would love to be spending most of my time with family.. just at home.

To seniors who are graduating, congratulations on your success!! This is just the beginning to an exciting outside world experience! To Amar, Kak Dil, Kak Izatul, Wan, Nas, Kak Zee, Kak Tini, Kak Mirah, Haleem, and the rest thanks for being a part of my life and thanks for all the help. I appreciate all that you have done for myself and my friends. I realize that you guys may not even read this, but I still would love to acknowledge you guys.

Looks like it's goodbye for now. Will update on the break and Summer 2011 real soon. Take care till then.

Research Paper

2011-04-28T19:48:00.000-07:00

I did this final research paper for my ARTH315 class with little effort put in it. I don't know why. Probably I have done well in the exams. But still, I'm being eaten up of guilty conscious. Nevertheless, I am submitting the current paper that I have tomorrow.
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Oh well, in life we always have choices. Once the choice is made, just go for it. I am still the "kiasu" person I am when it comes to marks, but this time around, I am fully responsible no matter what the outcome might be.

Finals next week. Can't wait. See you. Good luck all for finals!

New Year Eve & New Year 2011- Times Square & Statue of Liberty & Empire State Building

2011-03-25T19:51:00.000-07:00

THON 2011

2011-03-25T18:42:00.000-07:00

Above are just some of the pictures that I would love to share in this space. The rest will be uploaded to my Facebook once I reactivate it. Reflecting THON weekend now, I have one word- AWESOME!

Most of the pictures are taken with my committee CJ Khaled! Next post will also be mostly pictures taken during New Year Eve at New York City... I know.. that's like a long time ago...

THON & Spring Break & Happy!

2011-03-06T14:28:00.000-08:00

I'm back blogging. I don't feel good leaving this space not updated for too long. I had a blast in THON 2011. An astonishing amount of 9.5million was raised. It was a priceless experience-something beyond words. When I entered Bryce Jordan Center, I was simply overwhelmed.

My committee made it even more fun for the entire three days. We danced, laughed and cried together. It's been so emotional for the last four hours. I am glad I made the decision to join THON. It has always been a great eye-opener in many different ways. I managed to squeeze 3 hours-5hours of sleep during the three day of THON weekend. If you are still wondering what THON is all about, this may help you a bit:

THON is a student-run philanthropy organization to beat pediatric cancer. Dancers dance without sitting and sleeping in BJC for 46 hours For The Kids! (FTK!) I would definitely upload the pictures very soon in this very space of mine when time permits.

Seriously, there is so many people that I got to thank for making the weekend a smooth and convenient for me. Thanks to Erin Diehl who drove me to and forth from Vairo and BJC. It was such a big help that I would definitely remember. Secondly, a big thanks to Kelvin, Amy and Beatrice who agreed to my request to stay in their house. Thanks for the great hospitality and food. To know that I have good friends who I can rely on in times of need makes me feel lucky. Thirdly, CJ Khaled, my beloved committee! You guys are awesome and I had a great time with all of you guys especially our floor time. Can't believe I danced! Lol.

Now that THON is done, I am down with studies and working. I don't like to just let things slip away from my control. Call me bossy, but I'm just bossing myself around to do work. I've scheduled my summer courses and am excited for all that is happening right now and all that would happen. My instinct tells me I would fair better this semester than the last one. We shall see! I don't know where I obtain this optimism but I have very positive outlook towards studies no matter what my GPA might turn out to be. I have many friends coming up to me and asked me, if work has in any way affected my studies, Yes, it has. It has made me to study more in my weekdays compared to the times when I was just a student who pushes everything till the last time. Now, I can't do that. This experience is making me mature and independent. It is hard, nothing comes easy but I'm just up for the challenge.

Spring break so far has been good. Siva and Arvind is in the house. Nice to have them around. We had a potluck(as usual.. but loved it) and many who came, I believe had a great time. It's nice to catch up with fellow Malaysians because it's so hard even to meet if you're in different class and major. January didn't start as well as I wanted it to, but I just told myself to flip things over and make the months ahead better.

I managed to talk to Mitchell, a 7-year old kid on a wheel chair during THON weekend and I learned important things from him. He's such an awesome kid. So much joy and positivity from him makes me wonder why I even care to think all unnecessary stuff in this world and learn to but the best foot forward in everything that I do. He's handicapped and I have access to merely anything compared to him and yet I don't appear to show the amount of courage, optimism and friendliness that he seems to possess. He made me wonder the entire THON weekend. I told my mum about this and she simply said that I'm taking everything too seriously. She's just comforting her emotional son. I wish I am in a position where I could create changes for the people that are in need. No matter what my future career is going to be, I hope there is something that I could do to make people who have not tasted happiness to enjoy their lives a little more. Mitchell before leaving asked me to hug him because he knows this would be our last meeting unless we are extremely lucky. I wrote him a letter asking him to stay strong and be the awesome person he is. It was the best hour of my life to give kids like Mitchell so much happiness. I contained my sadness to myself. If you think I cried horribly in THON weekend, you're wrong. It was just a wake-up call I needed. This is a very personal experience that I would love to share. It struck me real bad. That's all I could say. It was a rejuvenating experience for my soul.

I have a picture of Mitchell that I would post soon. He is one of a kind; one in a million. Really.
I think I wrote too much today. But wait, did I tell you my favorite for American Idol Season 10?
Thia Megia and Jacob Lusk! (They are my favorites to win.. but I don't think any one of them would emerge as winner of this season.)

Conclusion: Just be happy and be responsible for things that you do! I can't wait to go home, Malaysia after successfully completing my first half of summer classes. It's gonna be awesome. No doubt.

See you guys! Wait for the pictures. I don't want to edit this post. Too long to edit. Lol.

Shout out to Adriana: Thanks for making me take Spanish class. I am excited for it.

Bye!

Contact info

2011-01-26T04:31:00.000-08:00

I currently deactivated my Facebook account because I would not want to be distracted by it. I'm currently busy. Next two months is going to be crazy considering I'm working during weekends.

How to reach me?

I'm very good with emails. I can respond to you guys ASAP.

Email addresses: geshrao90@gmail.com & gesh_rao90@yahoo.com

Follow me on twitter if you would like. I think this might be a good change for me. Hope you guys understand! I would definitely reactivate my account. It's just a matter of time. See ya.

Spring 2011

2011-01-11T16:31:00.000-08:00

Hey there! Hope everyone had a great winter break. I had tiring yet wonderful break.

I've attended two days of class so far. It's been awesome. The routine of classes, exams, work and etc begins now and this blog is to be updated less frequently than before.

I met Bond's family last Saturday and had a great time with them. Thanks for the dinner again!

This semester I'm taking all three science courses and an art subject.(Indian Art). Interestingly, Southeast Asia would be discussed in the class and I'm definitely thrilled about it. Most students in my class are majoring in Art History, therefore they would know more about Southeast Asia more than I do. Lol.

Today, I entered Whitmore lab for the first time. Perhaps my intention to have a industrial based career rather than research based career may change if I enjoy my time in the lab. Since the experiments are conducted individually, it would give everyone hands-on opportunity to experience how would it be like to be an independent researcher.

On another hand, I'm definitely impatient for THON 2011 that is going to take place around mid-February. It has to be a lifetime experience to be able to be in Bryce Jordan Center and witness how people come together and dance for one mission- to find cure for pediatric cancer.

I will be starting my work at Redifer Commons on Friday. I'm anxious and happy to be working. After all, it's the experience that I'm really seeking for.

This semester is going to pass by swiftly because I'm occupied with many things. But, who isn't right? It's just the matter of time one puts in for one specific cause. Hope everyone would have a great semester. Got to quit now or else you got to hear me rambling more. Bye.

Winter Break & Happy New Year

2010-12-29T13:03:00.000-08:00

Let me begin by saying Miami was awesome. Tried parasailing and loved it. Amazing weather.

Philadelphia's Banana Leaf(Malaysian Cuisine) was way too good.

Going to NYC for New Year countdown & downtown tour tomorrow.

Will post some pictures here but they are all over on my Facebook wall right now.

Looking forward for next semester- Spring 2010. I will be working in South Halls and am very excited about it.

I'm wishing all my readers a Happy New Year 2011! How time flies. I feel old despite not behaving like one.

My resolutions for next year would be:

1. Study hard for Spring 2011

2. Save money for travelling/ or to go back home

3. Balance between work and studies

4. Improve cooking

5. Pick up on my reading. It's been long since I touched a book.

6. THON 2011- Have a great time FTK!

7. Stay positive & happy

Hope 2011 is one of the greatest year ever! =) Take care guys!

Relieved

2010-12-16T20:11:00.000-08:00

Yes, as you might have guessed, I'm done with finals. Exams during final week I can safely say was doable. Hoping for good grades in all subjects. I have given my best shot as always. Did not sleep the entire night before Molecular Biology test. Bad habits die hard. Lol. My first semester here in Penn State is over. I am definitely relieved and looking forward for a well-planned and budgeted Winter break trip. I will update you guys on the break once I'm done travelling.

I bought an Ipod a week ago. Really enjoy using it.

I baked a cake today. Love trying new stuff in the kitchen. It gets very motivating if things turn out pretty well.

To my family & friends in Malaysia, I'm missing you guys dearly.

Thanksgiving Break

2010-11-28T15:14:00.000-08:00

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Thanksgiving break was indeed great for I got to relax throughout the week. It definitely has spoiled me a little too much considering the time I wake up from sleep which shall not be disclosed here. I am looking forward for my final exam week so that I can proudly declare that my first semester in States is over! I'm sure it would feel good. I got to work hard from now on for finals and good grades are all I'm hoping for.

I was indeed lucky for not being alone during thanksgiving break. So just extending my thankfulness to Sharma, Par, Ja Hong, Hui Ping, Leh Ming, Ting Ting, Ek Ying, Faseeha, Atikah, Na'ilah, Hazreena, Farhan, Nana, Nadiah, Shafiqah, and Ja Hong's church for enlightening my one week break in State College. I didn't travel as planned for money was scarce and saving up for winter plans.

I would also like to apologize to Darla & Wayne for not being able to join you guys for Thanksgiving. Hope you guys had a blast!

Will update more after my final exams. Take care y'all!

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A Broad Smile

2010-11-11T14:57:00.000-08:00

Picking up from where I left, I had three tests in the past three weeks. I'm glad I'm done and really am tired. Daylight savings time fluctuated my biological clock. It was awesome though to mess up with nature's law of time. (I bet I won't be saying this when I'm going to be robbed one hour of my life soon. ) I was thinking today whether I'm doing enough to get the best out of my student life.. and the answer I got from myself is NO!

I will tell you why. Studies are still the priority to me but I am interested to work. My time aren't occupied except for Wednesdays(it's for the kids(FTK!)). I decided I would really want to work to gain experience. Tomorrow I'm going to do job hunting on campus.. Wish me luck!

The fact that I would want to do so much in these few years may be not be a very good idea for many. However, it puts a broad smile on my face just doing things I love to do. I am trying to make most out of my time here rather than just lazing around.(sometimes we need this but not all the time). As far studies are concerned, I am coping with a lot of hard work put into every subjects. I'm hoping for a good GPA for this sem.

I've no definite plans for Winter and Thanksgiving break. I'm still in the dilemma of whether I should go back to Malaysia in the second session of Summer 2011 considering the fact that many of my friends are.

Deepavali here was just like any other days except we had spicy food for dinner. Reflecting on how far I've grown and mature, I feel proud to be who I am now. Many of us still has the perception that one has to be the best in everything that one does. To me, if you bring out the best in yourself and work sincerely towards your goal while avoiding comparison with your peers, success is in your way. I truly believe in this!

I have a hang out session with CCSG committee today after my Physics lab. Looking forward to meet them. This weekend I shall spend on revising for my Chem quiz. I guess that's about it for now. How do you like the change of layout and background color of "Ultimate Destiny." I thought it was time for a change to give my blog a contemporary look. (it's actually just a product of my joblessness a few days ago.) See you guys. :)

A Broad Smile is all we need to start a new day with passion and enthusiasm.

Was it a dream?

2010-10-24T19:43:00.000-07:00

I was bored being in the room for the entire day today. Hence, I decided to take my bicycle and go for a ride. I discovered a beautiful place. All one can see are well-placed houses, lush green grass and the bright blue sky (surprisingly a perfect weather today). I felt the solace that I've been seeking for was found. I rested on the grass and reflected my experience in the States so far. I realized how blessed I've been in life thus far.

I know for myself, travelling isn't my priority in States. Studies are. Travelling and all the fun comes second. I would love to have a combination of both every semester. I felt energized to face the coming weeks and I'm ready for it. I've been busy with MASA and THON committee meetings. These two organizations are the one that I'm going to spend my time for besides my studies.

The bicycle ride did give me the inner strength to work hard and reinforce my principles of looking everything in a positive way. Life here isn't tough, it's just difficult to embrace it for your loved ones are far away from you. Then again, I just love State College and Penn State! Could not ask for more!

Looking forward for Thanksgiving Break. Didn't finalize my plans yet, but preparing for finals would be one of the plans during the break. I'm excited and anxious of winter that is approaching.

That's it for now peeps. Got to go. Wishing everyone a blessed life! Be good and take care! *peace*

Short Updates

2010-10-10T11:35:00.000-07:00

Hi peeps. Just some short updates for you guys.

A few days/weeks ago.

-Got into THON Committee(CCSG)

-Went to Niagara Falls

-Attended homecoming parade

-Went out with Darla & Wayne

Today

-Studying for Bio test

Days to come

-Face the days to come with optimism.. (a lot of procrastinated work!.)

See you guys!! Just a shout out to my friend, Timothy Kwan: Wishing you a happy and blessed birthday!!!! (10/10/10).

Pictures of Good Times.

2010-09-18T14:22:00.000-07:00

Been a stressful week but an enjoyable Saturday. (volunteered to work in the concession stand). Last Sunday, I was in Wayne and Darla's house. Below are some of the pictures.. Happy moments..

American Meal & This Week

2010-09-17T21:31:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday was my best Sunday in States thus far. This is because the Bond family hosted me in their beautiful house located in Reedsville. It was a phenomenal town to me for I enjoy the greenery and the tranquility the town has to offer. Wayne brought me around three small towns that was equally beautiful. There were many farms and I saw Amish people whom Wayne further described to me their lifestyles. I find them very interesting.

Darla was in the house preparing for the meal and I hope it did not burden her in any ways. Wayne and I came back around 5.45pm and it was dinner time. What a wonderful dinner we had and not forgetting the extremely delicious desert prepared by Darla. I still think her desert should be out in the market. Wayne and Darla have a cute and obedient dog called Cassie and she's a part of the family too. I got nervous when it jumps on me. Lol. Darla and Wayne have a son who is currently studying in a private school in Ohio.

After dinner, we discussed about both Malaysia and America. We shared a lot of interesting stories and I showed some of the pictures I took back in Malaysia. Then we also played a game known as Rummikub. I learned the rules of the game and played with both Darla and Wayne. I enjoyed the game for it really was fun. Wayne won the game. (Darla mentioned of Wayne winning everytime they played this game. lol.)

I would call this meal a very needed one for I was stressed out the entire week before. I would like to express my thankfulness to Wayne and Darla for having me in your house. You guys took the trouble to fetch me from Parkway despite your house being 35 minutes drive from State College to Reedsville.

It's Friday night now. (when I'm writing this entry.) I came back from an open house. I had a meeting. And some random walking into the HUB. I came back early for I felt tired. Tomorrow, I will be volunteering in the concession stand for the football game and I have some assignments to complete aftermath the game. Today, I had the honor of meeting Patricia and had a good chat with her. Patricia is the in-charge person for International Speakers Program which I signed up for. I'm glad I got to speak about Malaysia to high school students. It's a small group but it will be a good start and I'm excited about this program. Bio test this week was hard and I would say I scored an average score. (i definitely wished i scored higher.. ) I am planning to work on-campus but I am somewhat undecided on this matter. Oh well, I should stop this post here and update more when time permits. Have a great weekend all. Bye!

Two Weeks of Class

2010-09-04T11:57:00.000-07:00

I've been attending two weeks of class in States so far. All things considered, it's been a great exposure as in how the classes are conducted and etc. Besides walking around the huge campus, another cultural differences that I find here is that when the lecturer ends the class, everyone rushes out of the class as though they have prepared to leave 3 minutes or so before the class ends. This is amusing when I first entered the class but now I sort of blended in it well. Still finding it difficult though when I am still thinking of some of the problems and everyone is leaving. Lol.

All my Profs are indeed masters of their field. They are all helpful individuals. Next week Sunday I will be joining Bond family for dinner in their house. I am definitely excited of this new experience. Will update on that soon. Hari Raya is around the corner, so I would like to wish all my friends a "Selamat Hari Raya," and enjoy yourselves during the break. I miss holidays. I have one day off for Labor Day.

Friday nights here are mostly party time here. Downtown area will be crowded with the bars packed with people. Youngsters go out to drink while hanging out with their friends and having fun. Some rooms in apartments emit loud music and one can say a party is going on. I choose to stay indoors most of the time during night for the unfamiliarity of this new place.

Assignments are slowly piling up. A normal scenario of a college student. I am just taking things slowly so I don't end up disappointing myself. I missed Kris Allen performing at the State Theater. Tickets were sold out. I didn't bother to ask for the ticket prices for I bet it must cost a fortune. I'm looking forward to volunteer for a football home game to raise funds for the international ministries. Still waiting for the call. American football is a must-watch game for it's a huge thing in Penn State. I got to experience this at least for once. I hope Penn will do well this season although I am still learning to understand the nature of the game. Go Penn State! We Are..........Penn State!

That's it for now. *Peace*

Pennsylvania, America

2010-08-18T17:55:00.000-07:00

It's been a great experience so far here in Penn State. I don't regret my choice of choosing this school to graduate. I'm impressed by the hospitality of people here. I've been cooking with my house mates and we're living in beautiful apartment. I am slowly making friends from people from different countries. Classes will be starting next week onwards and I'm pretty excited about it for I got to make more friends. The roads here are very clean and the drivers here are indeed courteous.. ummm... what else shall I report? Oh, I've got myself a bike... I need it to ride from campus to my apartment. Washington DC trip was fun. I do love the entire place but living there would be a big NO for it's high living cost.

I'm fine here and having a great time here. Once classes start, I would be busy and this blog might experience some serious decomposition process.lol.. but I promise will update it every month at least if not every two weeks..

There's a lot I would love to share, but I have a little work to do for now.. Miss you guys back home.. Don't worry about me. I'm doing fine and am happy here. You guys take care and all the best in your future undertakings.. =) See you and have a nice day.

A Heavy Heart.

2010-08-04T09:43:00.000-07:00

I was excited to know that I'm flying to America this Saturday, but the feeling now somehow changed into a mixture of happiness and sadness.. Ya.. you hear this type of story often.. but I can't help but to tell. *warning.. this post has a tendency to be mushy*

I had many reunions.. too many to be precise.. some random ones.. some planned for a long time.. I did have a great time and all the best wishes during the reunion and Facebook messages do warm my heart. I'm also pleased that I got to catch up with my friends during the reunion. I'm just happy I got to meet most, if not all of my friends before a long separation. I've only words to offer to you guys- "All the best to you guys in future undertakings and be positive all the time. Take care."

This is the difficult part. I have a huge responsibility as a son, grandson and a brother. It's saddening that I would not be playing these roles efficiently for about three years. I'm just EXTREMELY worried not for myself- but for my family as a whole. It's just some issues are bothering me. If and only I have the power to solve problems immediately with everyone being happy.. seems difficult.. Separation from your loved ones are the tough part when one embarks into a journey where "far away" seems just an understatement.

Then again.. many has known me as an optimistic person. Yes, I am.. I never ended my post with a demoralized or depressed tone.. (if you realize that is). So, all I have to do, I got to be strong and be motivated to achieve my personal goals. I also need to think, and act positively. I'm just trying to keep myself contained and be prepared to face challenges in a new land which I have very little knowledge about.

I'm going to leave with a heavy heart in the name to seek knowledge and experience that will enrich me as person. All I could say at this point, thank you very much to everyone who has helped me in any way possible. I will remember your help and assistance. To all my teachers, lecturers, friends, sister and parents, you will be missed.Goodbye!

Individual VS Machination of State

2010-07-15T10:14:00.000-07:00

I read an interesting book (The Fixer) by Bernard Malamud during this free time of mine. It's my first attempt reading a historical piece relating to Jews in Russia when the anti-Semitic movement was at its peak. Russia exercises totalitarianism where the ruler holds the absolute power. This Jew was accused of a crime that he did not commit- killing a Christian child. The Fixer as the title suggests is the profession of Yakov, the central character of this novel. He was against the soul-destroying ideological pathologies which undergird totalitarian states. His determination in not signing the confession letter and his believe in justice are praiseworthy.

This individual vs machination state theme implies the real life situation in many circumstances. For an individual to be against certain ways things are conducted on a normal basis, he or she may be bombarded by heavy criticisms for challenging a long held believe. This includes political ideologies. After reading this novel, excusing myself from student government bodies felt out of place. My inaction reflects ignorance. Hence, it's a promise to myself, if I want to see changes happen, I shall change first.

I'm currently working on visa application and university application entry/update which I will email it to my juniors so as to help them sail through this complicated process. So most of my friends have started their undergraduate studies by now. I wish them all the best!. And as for me, I can't wait for my sophomore year to begin. Bye!

Two Months Already?

2010-06-26T05:51:00.002-07:00

These are some pictures during this two very exciting months. This free time of mine was spent for trips, charity and etc. It's hard to believe my short sem is over. It's difficult to say goodbye. But, life has to go on. The beautiful moments in INTEC will be cherished and I thank everyone for this wonderful experience.

I hope my next post would be an impersonalized one. (visa and uni application.)

My favorite quote of the day :

"Sometimes you got to let go to see if there was anything worth holding on to."

2010-06-26T05:51:00.001-07:00

18th June

2010-06-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I last updated. This short sem is coming to an end. I've decided not to attend ATU night. I've chose to come back to attend a small gathering that we long planned but was realized today. At 7pm, I've attended an orchestra performance by Chan Hwa band. They were very good and I enjoyed listening to some good pieces.

Next week, would be my last week in INTEC. I'm trying to avoid writing mushy stuff. Lol. I believe the experience and knowledge that I've gained in INTEC is priceless. Two years have just drifted by so promptly. I'm not sure what I'm feeling now. It's a mixture of confusion, excitement and worry.(figure that out) Next week Wednesday I'll be doing my clearance, then attend a birthday party of my one year old cousin after which I would be heading back home for one month holidays. Hope I can utilize this one month break beneficially.

I have to move on. I know clinging on the past brings sadness but past teaches us to face the future. I am definitely going to miss my friends. Thanks to the power of technology, I can still keep in touch with most if not all my friends. Today was a decent day. I hope the days that follow will be too. Now, got to study for my final test for this semester.

Just a shoutout to my father, whom I'm going to ask to read my blog shortly:

I love you! And Happy Father's Day! :) Get well soon.

Till then, goodbye!

What makes me happy?

2010-05-21T07:00:00.000-07:00

Happiness makes our life worthwhile. I sit one day to reflect things that make me happy. And I realized most of it were when I make others happy. Happiness is something we all strive in our respective lives and many of us end up finding little or not at all of it.

Once, when I was in a bus, an elderly woman tried to board the bus with heavy bags. A simple act of helping her to carry her bags was sufficient to keep me smiling the entire day. Is that happiness or satisfaction? The feeling of joy outweighed contentment. When my loved ones are happy, I would simply be felicitous. I'm also happy when in times of sadness and difficulty, I know there are people who care for me.

Happiness come in many forms- be it exam results or fortune. It depends on individuals as a matter of fact. But it is true many of us will be happy if we are able to make others around us happy. Happiness exists when one expresses creativity, one has meaning and purpose of this life and one is optimistic. (Chopra, 2010).

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Next week I would not be coming back to Seremban. I might have a short trip to Malacca with Debate Club friends. Then, I'm attending Relay for Life on 29th of May at Stadium Bukit Jalil. I've never been there before so obviously I'm excited. It's a charity event for cancer patients. I was oblivious of this event until I found this website:

http://www.kaconsulting.com.my/cancer.org.my/index.php?sc=canyouhelp&id=7&md=folder

We can all contribute. I want to buy the wristbands!

Now that JPA results are out, those successful applicants going to United States in one or two years to come, check out this event in facebook:

http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=125735397439450

Those who are not able to get the scholarship, it's NOT the end of the road. Some do think negatively about themselves for not obtaining it. Opportunities are aplenty. You can still be successful in future. Appealing process surely is on the way. My piece of advice, don't leave the choice of majors empty in the online appealing form. Select your 2nd choice major wisely.

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That's it for now. In near future I would like to post an entry on US university application from A-Z of the application process for an international student. See you guys. Have a great weekend.

Stay positive always!

Summertime

2010-05-07T09:22:00.000-07:00

Hi peeps! I had a great birthday celebration with my friends on the 3rd of May. Thanks guys! The Summer Sem begins with much exhilaration for we were given one week off when we are supposed to have classes. Wonderful! What's not so amazing is, I am left with a day before I head back to my college. Exam results are out today. I am on cloud nine. Didn't really expect it would turn out to be good. Yay:)

So.. nothing much for me this sem. Taking only one subject- Introduction to Sociology. I have only three days of class in a week. Complete state of joblessness. I have to seek something to do now. Despite my laziness, I still would want to update my blog to keep my blog alive and up to date. So, here it is! I have an assignment to be submitted this Monday and I haven't completed it. Now I understand that joblessness develops into laziness (to a chronic stage that is). I need to wake up from this entire week of unproductiveness.

By know, I believe many scholarships results are disclosed. Therefore, I would like to stress that obtaining a scholarship is just a privilege and academic excellence is of the utmost importance for a student. Getting the scholarship, doesn't put one in a higher status in the society, neither does it prove one is academically superior compared to those who didn't receive the scholarship. This reminds me to thank my sponsors for the financial assistance which I do need to pursue my tertiary education. I feel it is all destined. My journey here in this planet has a long way to go(portrayal of optimism). So, why not make it worthwhile? In my voyage, I wish for new experiences and knowledge that would enrich me in every possible ways. I didn't obtain my intended major at first, but in my case it's just a blessing in disguise. I'm loving every single thing about my major and there's no looking back. From now on, I hope life would be amazing and I can think maturely. (since I'm 20... hard to believe it myself).

I just would like to take this opportunity to wish all mother's around the world, "Happy Mother's Day." Thanks to my mum for everything thus far and forever.

That's it for now. Take care. To all my friends in States, enjoy your coming summer! Do take summer classes and at the same time enjoy your outdoor activities. :)Bye. Got to pack my luggage. Goodnight.

Spring-Summer Transition

2010-04-22T08:05:00.000-07:00

Spring Sem is officially over. Final exams were doable. I finally got to catch up on a lot of sleep and rest. It does feel good for the first two days. After that, boredom does creep in. Humans- never satisfied with what we have. So true. However, I don't get much of a break because next Monday I will be attending a compulsory camp in Sepang. Hope I would have good time there. Summer Sem starts on the 3rd of May.(registration). It's packed but Summer Sem promises free time, less studying and more playing for the students will only be taking one subject. (sociology, perhaps for me.)

Spring does give one the idea of renewal and regrowth after winter where flowers start to blossom beautifully. Summer, on the other hand, gives me the impression of having fun and spending more time outdoors. Probably, it's simply because during summer the days are longer than the nights. Lol. After experiencing the semester systems in INTEC which gives us a somewhat similar experience that we will gain soon in the States, I do feel renewed with much knowledge and for summer I am prepared to get a little bit loose and ready for the fun. This Spring wouldn't have been the same if not for the lecturers who made it very memorable.

Thank you to all my lecturers in INTEC for your wonderful lessons and patience.

Biology- Pn Mimi Sophia Sarbandi

Chemistry- Miss Siti Nubailah

Literature & Technical Writing- Mr Ahmad Kamal Basyah Sallehuddin

Ethics- Mr Ridhauddin

Thank you. =)

I do realize that life after graduating would be even more difficult than life being a student. I bet many knows this. So, whenever you can, appreciate your student life and cherish every moments if possible. Friends and lecturers make a big part of a student's life. I try my very best to put on a smile at the beginning of everyday so I would experience a cheerful day ahead.

I am currently reading "Lolita," by Vladimir Nabokov. A heavy reading for me. I bet would take long for me to finish. I am currently back at home. I'm a bit occupied in finding for my housing near my university. Hope I would get an appropriate one by the end of today! That's all for now. Enjoy your break to all INTEC, ACTP students. Will definitely miss you guys! We still have Summer!!

Bye and take care.

Suffocating

2010-04-12T06:52:00.000-07:00

Maybe it's just me. Maybe not. Peculiar feeling.

Let me start by congratulating Arkansans for winning Class Parade Competition this year. Good job! I know it's been some time, but little can I do for I couldn't find the time to update my blog. With finals coming in one week time, I have to use this week to prepare myself for it.

I have a weird feeling today. Been a rough day. I cannot face my own frustration. I am avoiding a problem. It's difficult to face it. It is a small matter; however, it bothers. I do feel I am suffocating but ignorance seems the only way out for now.

As far studies are concerned, I am doing fine. It's just these little things in life, that may seem unimportant, makes a whole lot of difference. I am not sure why am I disturbed. I worry too much. I agree. I think a lot. I agree. But, still it bothers. I can forgive but I am not a saint who can forget.

I know for myself, nothing is more important now than my final exams, going back on my birthday and celebrate, as well as spend good times with people who I appreciate the most. Things get rough at many checkpoints in life. This is just one rough checkpoint. I am not the type who stays too long in one checkpoint. I want to pass through it by facing it. It's just the matter of time. Just as how wounds heal, I would be able to recover and get over with it. I am sorry to all my readers that you guys have to read mundane writings of mine. It's just I need a medium to express my unsureness and ambivalence. Nobody is to be blamed. I will face it!

I promise the next post will be more cheerful. Bye and goodnight.

Maybe it's just me. Maybe not.

Drained!

2010-03-19T02:05:00.000-07:00

I still remember I posted an entry for class parade last year. This year is no different. My class presented based on "Beauty and the Beast." I believe we all had great fun. Above are three of the many pics that we took. This Spring semester is no different from the previous. First, I got to congratulate Arkansans for the wonderful job. Really am very proud of you guys!! I also would like to ask for forgiveness from you guys if I was too hard on some of you during the parade practice. To me, we have done enough to proof that we practiced and serious in what we're doing.

I am exhausted and I needed a break, which explains why I lost my spirit to submit my literature Term Paper today. (not mentioning my 5 bonus marks loss.. sigh..) Looking at the bright side, I have extra time to revise and edit my work before the actual submission day . This weekend, I want to relax but at the same time get some assignments done. Saturday, going out with family to PD and this I believe is necessary for I want to spend most of my time now with my loved ones.

I have to just keep going on. Tests are around the corner. Got to prepare. I guess that's all I could summarize for now. Not going to write long entries simply because I can't find much time. However, this entry is sufficient to revive my dying blog. Lol. Bye.

The End of Break

2010-02-19T19:07:00.000-08:00

I will be back to Shah Alam on Sunday. I have to admit my one week holidays was filled with much fun with outings and times other than outings are spent in front of my laptop. Now, I don't want to waste my time feeling guilty because that will take a long time to recover. So, I better get things started and start completing what needs to be done. One good news that I receive during this break is, I am accepted by Penn State University.*happy happy* But, I'm still waiting for admission decisions from other universities. So, I'm keeping my options open and fingers crossed.

As a final note, I would like to wish all STPM students all the best for their results, that is said to be disclosed this coming Thursday. Pray hard people.

Bye and take care.

"If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans,"
- Amy Hempel

You're Not Me

2010-02-13T01:16:00.000-08:00

It's bothering me for quite some time,
The turmoil in my mind,
Not for you to know,
Because you don't see what I see,
Because we're just different,
I see no understanding,
Sometimes we get together,
And most time we're just there,
You and me,
So close yet so far.

I am wrong,
But I have rights to be,
You never will understand,
The plight and sadness that I bear,
My face is happy,
My heart isn't,
Wishing for a better tomorrow,
But the tomorrow never comes,
But I wait,
You don't know,
So don't say that way,
The way that hurts,
Maybe you don't see,
What I see,
Because you're not me.

2010-02-12T07:02:00.000-08:00

Farewell & CNY

2010-02-12T06:37:00.000-08:00

10a.m. to 5p.m.- I was out to "makan" with my friends. It was nice to see how excited my friends are to fly. With Chinese New Year around the corner, it would be difficult to leave the country. You guys be safe there!! All the best!!

After spending some time in Foodtiam, some of us headed to Jusco. We somehow ended up watching a movie.- The Wolfman.. (previously we wanted to karaoke..but due to the price..we thrashed the idea.. next time guys!)

Back for Chinese New Year holidays.. Have a number of assignments to complete and exams to study. But still there's always room for rest and sleep. Yay!!

I would like to wish all who are celebrating CNY, a very happy New Year. Have a great time with family. Take care.

Spring 2010

2010-01-19T01:24:00.000-08:00

I haven't updated my blog for quite a while. I'm back to Shah Alam. This semester I'm taking still somewhat heavy subjects- Cell Biology, Chemistry II, Literature, Contemporary Legal Issues and Technical Writing. Assignments are starting to pile up.. But, I refuse to work on them for I'm too engrossed with my literature book, The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck. Got to finish reading first before laying my hand on other assignments.

It's 19th January. Feels like just a few days ago since New Year but it's the 19th day of the first month. The subjects this semester seemed fun to me.(this is only my initial thoughts, subject to change!! LOL!) I don't know whether the absence of Calculus is creating the fun mood or it's due to the subjects alone.

Again, this time around I became Class REP, which means my phone credit is going to flow like a river, no maybe like a waterfall... But, it's fine with me for it's just another form of learning. Let's just say, it's going to be another fun, hectic semester. This Friday, I have a camp in Kuala Kubu, representing debate club, ORBIC.

I have nothing much to fill you with for now except my life as a student.Wait, did I tell you how great Sherlock Homes was? Now, I'm telling you.. It was great! Looking forward to be back to Seremban during Chinese New Year.

My favorite quote from A Late Encounter With The Enemy by Flannery O'Conner:
"What happened then wasn't anything to a man living now and he was living now."

Bye!! =)

Announcement to INTEC students: For those interested in joining ORBIC, Malay Debate Club, please attend a seminar at INTEC Library, Bilik Seminar, Level 1 this Thursday, 21/01/2010 at 4pm-6pm. There will be a talk given by the advisor of the club, Mr.Ikhwan. Food is provided. It's an one hour talk. Everyone is welcome to attend!! Thank you.

Happy New Year!!

2009-12-30T19:29:00.000-08:00

2009 is drawing to an end to give way for 2010. Reflection is what I need the most at this time of the year to draft my new year resolution. It has been a quite an awesome 2009. Spring, Summer and Fall 2009 was indeed a big part of my life this year. There were many sweet memories and some unhappy moments. But, both are important for I learned something from every events. This little things in life can really make a big difference. If one condones all the small matters, then one will never learn from mistakes. One important lesson for this year as far I am concerned is one shall not run from a problem but face it and try solving it. Evading the problem is not going to do any good. We probably have heard the statements above many times at one point of our lives. But when one really is involved in such a situation, one will realize that words only serve as a guideline. It is the action that counts in the end.

I had a very unhappy December. I encountered problems with my university application. I feel it is just another test for me to pass in life. This problem tested my patience. I have to thank my parents for being there when I need them the most. Not forgetting, my friends who have really helped me to ace the application process. All that is left now is the submission process.

A few days ago, when I was walking back home, the stillness of the surrounding really was something to me. I was the only mobile object/body. For once, the world is not all fast and furious. It's not about competition. Then, came a few speeding vehicles that disturbed the whole tranquil picture. However, I cherish that few minutes of silence. It shows how much life have become a race .. at least to me.. It's time to take it slowly and focus on necessary things only.

Year 2009 also has opened my eyes to understand myself better. I realized that I sometimes don't speak out what I think only to please others. Just like peeling a fruit, you slowly discover the contents, so it is with man. I am still discovering and learning more about myself. 2010 is an important year in my family. I pray that next year( one more day to go) will promise much happiness to my family and friends.
As far as my studies are concerned, I stick to my motto- work hard!! I have to keep improving my CGPA. Times have named the person of the year for 2009- Ben Bernanke for being an important person in saving the world's economy. I never know who he was till I read about it. Simple man with great contribution.

Final say, I would like to take this opportunity to wish a blessed New Year to all my readers!! Give sometime for yourself to reflect your past and maybe you would get an idea how to live a better year ahead. Staying positive is pivotal. We have to move on with life no matter how difficult it is. Just keep reminding yourselves that there are others out there that are far unfortunate compared to you. Take care and will be writing on Spring 2010 soon. Till then, bye!!

Giving Up Is Good?

2009-12-16T04:13:00.001-08:00

When one encounters problem/s, there's two options : either to give up or to persevere? So, it is an ordinary response for one to advice another to continue to persevere in order to solve one's problem/s. Some argue that giving up good. In some cases, giving up can only be the most intelligent way out of a problem. Based on the Illuminated Minds website, giving up is perceived as honoring one's feelings. I find a few interesting things that applies to some of us if not all.

Source: http://www.illuminatedmind.net

The author urges readers to :

1.Give up trying to be cool
2.Give up wanting to be different for the sake of being unique
3.Give up trying to be everything to everyone
4.Give up trying to have a flawless body, perfect face, or an impeccable wardrobe.Care more about beautifying your mind and being a person who takes beautiful actions.

So, what do you think about this? Is giving up after all a wise thing to do when one is in the verge of breaking down? Most of us don't give up for most of us like to be heroes.Do you feel comfortable of yourself and how you behave?

When I read this article, I don't agree completely that one should give up to be out of a problem. But once again it depends on the individual cases. Life would be meaningless if there's no challenge. To see a beautiful valley on the other side of a mountain, one should climb that mountain. That should indicate my stand on this topic. However, one should not be too hard on oneself for it may lead to negative consequences to one' mental health.

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My reading rate is dropping. Thanks to the Internet. Eveything is just a few clicks away..(the information). It's hard to force myself to the library nowadays to browse through all the books to find information when I know that the Internet can provide me all that I need. Therefore, I don't get the extra input. Holidays have been always a blessing. I'm currently doing my university application, learning to drive and just chilling around my house. I have to admit it is always nice to be back home. =)

So, don't give up unless you're sure that you're unable to solve a problem or complete a task. "No Pain No Gain." Have a great holidays!

2009-12-16T04:13:00.000-08:00

Another Sunday

2009-11-28T20:12:00.000-08:00

Just like any other Sundays, I woke up in the morning, took my breakfast, read the newspaper and now I'm facing my laptop updating my blog. Last Thursday, my father and I went to Johor Bharu to attend my cousin's wedding. We travelled by a bus at 10pm and arrived at J.B at 2.30 in the morning. The journey was exhausting for the traffic was heavy- many were heading to their "kampungs" to celebrate Hari Raya Aidiladha. Then we returned home yesterday. I didn't have that much of a fun for I had no company except for my father who was completely absorbed with his old time friends. They had long conversations about their lives. It must be a "walk through history" talk for them. I particularly spend time with my grandparents who also had nothing to do except waiting for the wedding to begin.

What surprises me is, my grandfather could barely walk now. His walking pace declined drastically. Saddening as it can be, he might be developing Alzheimers. The first symptom that shows he has this disease is his impaired memory. He cannot remember my name!!!!!(but he could remember my sister's name.. ) But, that's just my diagnosis. My grandparents are really getting old. They would need really good care.

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New Sunday Times- Headlines
SEX AND THE HUBBY
Career-obsessed wives blamed as men turn to call girls...
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Many are going to have mixed reviews on this. This is about high demand for prostitutes in Malaysia. Who is it to be blamed? This time around career-obsessed wives are pointed out to be causing men to seek prostitutes. I feel that it depends on the individuals. Career-obsessed wives can also be good wives and mothers.
So are we saying that men who seeks prostitutes are on the correct path just because they are provoked to do so?? Final say, men seeking prostitution and women neglecting family are not appropriate actions.

I'm still doing my University applications. Maybe will be going to Shah Alam mid December to clear all my doubts on the forms. Feeling very bad because I have done nothing beneficial this entire November.. Sigh..
That's all for now. Will write another entry before January rolls by..
(Spring 2010.. wooo!!) Time is flying fast.. Once again.. New Year.. New Resolution..

Broken Wing

2009-11-18T05:28:00.000-08:00

She loved like he was
The last man on Earth
Gave him everything she had
He'd break her spirit down
Then come lovin' up on her
Give a little then take it back

She'd tell him bout her dreams
He'd just shoot'em down
Lord he loved to make her cry
You're crazy for believin'
You'll ever leave the ground
He said only angels know how to fly

And with a broken wing
She still sings
She keeps an eye over the sky
With a broken wings
She carries her dreams
Man you oughta to see her fly

One Sunday morning,
She didn't go to church
He wondered why she didn't leave
He went up to the bedroom
Found a note by the window
With the curtains blowin' in the breeze

And with a broken wing
She still sings
She keeps an eye over the sky
With a broken wings
She carries her dreams
Man you oughta see her fly

With a broken wing
She carries her dreams
Man you oughta see her fly..

Random Recent Pics

2009-11-02T17:53:00.001-08:00

Finally...

2009-11-01T01:35:00.000-07:00

It's been pretty hectic the last two weeks.. I know that I haven't been writing for a while but I would personally blame exams and time constrain that refrained me from blogging. I had a wonderful Deepavali with my family anf friends. Food was my favorite part of every deepavali...especially my mum's mutton curry..Umm...

In the midst of celebrating Deepavali, I was busy editing a video for Biology assignment. The video was on Aquaria's marine species. The experience there was an awesome one. We, my group, learned a lot of new things on marine life. But, I wasn't completely satisfied for there were just way too little species to observe. The fact that I went with my friends, made the trip evenmore worthwhile.

After the celebration, I headed back to Shah Alam to face a tough week ahead. The Final Exams!!! As a whole, I did ok..(i guess). But, I disliked the overwhelming difficulity of Calculus paper. I always knew that I have no innate capability for Mathematics.. I got to earn for a good grade through sheer hardwork and not last minute studying. Sigh...still... for Calculus finals, I did badly.(I mean it!!!).
Other subjects was pretty much doable. I just hope that my final grade for Fall 2009 would not suffer too much. Do have high expectations for the final grade. Who knows what the final results might be??

After the finals, we the students can be seen smiling from ear to ear and everybody was relieved that Fall 2009 has marked its end. Elated and happy I was to complete my finals. The next day the Biotechnology students participated in a trip to UKM center where we went jungle-walking. We saw many plant species that were explained It was a great experience to spent time with anything else but books. Hehe..
Then, the same day I went out for a movie with Thena, Kaneson, Hema, Jasina, Bavani and Thanges. (Law of Abiding Citizen). I rate the movie 9/10. Very impressed.
Then, it's Sunday, today that is!! Tomorrow, I got a trip to Genting Highlands with friends.. I needed a vacation to regain what I've lost for four months. Maybe, i make studying sound so hard, it's actually not. Just that I'm too hard on myself.
That's the way I am. My father use to say that I play hard but study a little more than hard(translated phrase). Haha..But the best part is, I get to rest now and I truly appreciate this break. Hope I would hape a lot of fun in Genting tomorrow.

I would be going back to Seremban next week Thursday or so. Got to complete my unversity application. I applied Iowa, Michigan and Penn State University. So wish to complete everything before going back and have a great time with family.

I'm happy for I finally got to update my blog..Hooray...

And for juniors who are interested in buying my books for Spring 2010, please contact me via e-mail: gesh_rao90@yahoo.com. Thank you..

Ok..have a nice day and all the best to everyone especially to those who are facing major examinations ahead of you.

Selamat Hari Raya!! A week of Home Food..YUmmy..

2009-09-17T22:35:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya to everyone!!! Hope this celebration would be a great one to all my friends who are celebrating. Enjoy the good food...

I'm going back today to Seremban. I can guarantee I'm going to enjoy some good food for one week. I feel my tongue right now has no taste buds...As usual, holidays aren't after all meant for 100% rest. I got to complete my university application papers. Got to go back to my secondary school...And a whole lot of preparation for the coming tests after Raya break. But, it would be still wonderful to spend quality time together with family.

That's it I guess for now..Just drive safely and have fun..It's holidays after all!!

What A Week It Has Been!!!

2009-09-05T23:22:00.000-07:00

This past few days are probably the most exhausting days ever...
There were three exams and 2 quizzes conducted. I and probably most of ACTP students are lack of sleep nearly everyday. On Saturday, we took a video for a competition organized by Astro. It was tiring yet it was a memorable experience..

Next week, the routine is unfortunately to continue with civilization test and calculus test2. Talking about Calculus, I did extremely bad for my Test1. With Test2 just around the corner, I shall not panic for being nervous really makes me blank in exams.

I'm looking forward for Hari Raya break. Rest is something I need badly...

However, once Fall sem is over, and when I reflect upon the experiences I've been through, I would definitely be glad to realize that I've grown up and learned a lot of new things...

Bye!! Got to go and study Cal!!

Slacking...

2009-08-15T02:00:00.000-07:00

Last week was hectic...The coming week promises two times the work of the previous.....I'm lazy...Saturdays are meant for rest and I'm not getting one...Lazy to even post a new entry despite the many things that have happened in one month time..(wow... been one month or so since my previous post..that's too fast...I felt like I posted my previous entry a week ago..Lol!)

I'm also supposed to think about my university choices..I'm still uncertain on whether I should change my major to Biochem or Genetics or not..The universities for biotechnology major is limited. Too many "big" things to consider...

One week break...Only to study for the comming mid-sem exams...But, I'm looking forward for the break for I can work at my favored pace..

I enjoy learnnig C++...Computer programming is such an exciting field....Although I'm not good at it, I enjoy it mostly because I can display my program...So excited to create the game..(an assignment to do before the end of this sem.)

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#include
using namespace std;
int main()
{
cout<<"I would stop now..Partly because I'm lazy and I'm feeling
guilty for I need to do my Cal homework. See you my dear readers!"<
char freeze;
cin>>freeze;
return 0;
}

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Fall 2009....American Credit Transfer Program

2009-07-13T03:40:00.000-07:00

An exciting year has passed here in INTEC. Being an undergraduate student feels different..An inexplicable feeeling...I'm taking a total of five subjects - Chemistry, Biology (Evolution), Calculus2, Civilization, and C++(computer programmming). Unlike the previous two semesters, all the subjects for Fall requires a great deal of studying..(if one is determined to score well in this sem). I'm in a class known as Arkansas...We call ourselves as Arkansans. The unfortunate fate that we, Arkansans have to bear is we have no definite class...But, I guess it would be a good practice for us as students in universities in the States have to switch classes after each lectures...

As for me, this sem I have to work hard (as usual) to earn the grades desired..No easy way. There would be a debate competition soon..Preparing for it..Wished I would have extra time to do my extra readings...It seems that all the reading that I do are exam-oriented.I'm enjoying C++ but quite worried of the tests..Hope I would fair well..I'm probably showing too much worries and expectations for this sem from my writing, that's exactly what I feel.

A lot of my buddies told me to take life one step at a time..I would partially agree...However, one should know everyone has personal goals...I've mine too as far as my CGPA is concerned.. Let's leave my story of a student and move on to.......movies...Harry Potter! Not a big fan though..There's of course a big huu haa here - about the movie.. There's a plenty of meaningful movies that are not commercialized at a big scale like Potter's. But then again, it depends on the individual concerned, whether to watch or not. I might go for H.Potter's show if I have the time..

There's another thing that I would like to include - about MJ.. Definitely a great loss to the music industry.. When I heard about his death, I was still in a camp..But one funny thing is that, people tend to appreciate him more after he's gone than when he was alive..His record sales did skyrocket, so did the youtube downloads for his music videos..

Another shocking news, I heard someone was murdered a few days ago near my place. He was found dead in a shopping mall.** sigh deeply**

Getting used to my new room...My housemates are Alan and Leh Ming while my roommate is Kugan. It's fun living with them..I have to admit that as we spend more time together, we get closer.. But, I'm spending more time in the library than in the room...so I don't have too much time to talk to my roommates..Just a few words...(sometimes can be too many words) as an acknowledgement of each other's existence...
Our conversations can be winding though..especially when we're free..(thursday and friday nights). Do hope to have an awesome year with you guys!!

I would be heading to Seremban tomorrow..Not to have fun..but to prepare for my coming quizzes and tests..Work would always be there..It's the matter of procrastinating or reducing the burden...I would go for the latter one..Because my last minute work would be really bad..I've tried once..And never will again...

Dear readers,
Thanks for following up ...I'm extremely exhausted now..Would be heading to my hostel...in the hope to have a good night sleep without the disturbance of mosquitoes...Let's hope so.. Till then, take care and have a nice weekend!! Bye!! PEACE!!! **wink**

Last Week In Action!!

2009-07-05T16:44:00.000-07:00

It’s been quite a while since I updated my blog. I helped out as a PM(Pembantu Mahasiswa) for the new intake. I have to thank this experience for I discovered a lot of my never-known personality. Before the orientation days start, the PM’s are recruited to a camp in Lengging, Negeri Sembilan. Although, Negeri is my hometown, it doesn’t feel home upon reaching there. I’m quite surprised that the camp for PM’s is held in a resort. The resort is surrounded by mountains and forests. I looked around…It’s green everywhere. We stayed there for two days…I wished we remained there longer…Camping is just a camouflage term for me as it seemed more like a vacation. Just like any other team-building camps, we had excel race and jungle tracking- just to name a few.. We returned last Friday.

On Sunday, it’s the registration day and that marks the beginning of an arduous week. Parents and students arrive in hostels as early as 7a.m, although it’s clearly stated that registration begins only at 8.30a.m. All I can remember about Sunday is I was on duty to welcome the guests. As you can imagine, under the scorching sun, wearing the best smile possible for the guests, standing and helping out the juniors, I tried my best to make everything run smooth and organized as far as ushering the guest is concerned… Parents bombarded me with many questions, some nonsensical ones and otherwise. But, it’s a typical scenario. Then, parents reluctantly left after ensuring their children had everything settled- from the sponsors documents, college registration, and etc.

Monday came…. I fell sick.. Sigh..I was assigned to be a facilitator for ADFP juniors. I fought through the day by consuming a lots of liquid especially water. My situation worsened. So, some of my friends suspected that it could be H1N1 case. Not knowing what to do, Eezane and Abang Junaidi, both PM’s too, advised me to seek medical attention(going to doctor…never liked it). Eezane drove me to the clinic. However, it was closed. We went on the next day. The doctor ruled out H1N1 and claimed my condition as normal flu. Partly I was relieved. I would like to thank Eezane and Abang Junaidi for being very concerned about my health…Thank you!!

Tuesday…I handled my juniors…I got to handle group 9. They’re really good kids..I am lucky to get them as my juniors. Weakness caused my energy level to drop. Some realized that I wasn’t normal. But, I never let juniors to realize anything. I tried to act as nonchalant as possible because I prefer completing my task rather than letting it go in mid-way. I surely had the option to quit and get some rest. I didn’t. Besides being a burden to the lecturer and the committee of MMS week, I will disappoint myself for not being able to be with the juniors. I’ve prepared most of the activities with them. So, I carried on. Clarinese and panadol helped me a great deal to endure the day. Time spent with my group has been awesome. We were so preoccupied with the activities that I forgot to snap some pictures with them. So, I couldn’t share it with you.

Wednesday was the last day for me to spend time with the juniors. After bidding farewell, I know that I’ve executed well enough considering I’m suffering from cold and fever. Thursday, MMS week came to an end with the PM’s have one final meeting to wrap up the whole week. It’s been a great opportunity to know more seniors especially the Faculty of Education. I got to mix with some of them. It’s been fun playing all the games with the other PM’s. Really learned a lot from you guys. I favor one game in particular: Mafia( not the facebook one..) I thank Mr.Kesh and team and all the PM’s to make this MMS a memorable and exciting event. No regrets of joining it despite tiredness it caused to most of us. A lesson I learnt from this amazing experience is that never give up.. I condoned what my body felt. I listened to what I preferred to do. It’s definitely not advisable to force yourself when you’re sick, but I believe that this situation is applicable everywhere and anytime. Never before did I know that I’m a strongly determined person. Very happy of the remarks that my juniors gave of the way I conducted the LDK’s (Latihan Dalam Kumpulan). Probably gave them too much rest…No wonder they liked it…Hehe…

I went back home on Thursday after the MMS. Home is always a place that would revivify me no matter how exhausting my previous days were. Probably the sight of my parents are very soothing..(emo). Father got himself a new car. Very excited about it. Up to Saturday, I’ve been forcing him to bring us(family) out. He did comply to me. A car is a necessity for many but I’ve lived without it for nearly 19 years. My parents would really need it in future. Then, all too soon, on Saturday I headed back to Shah Alam. Right now, I’ve moved to a new hostel. Got a room…Not too bad as I expected..Another year to sail through…

Tomorrow: Monday will be my first day as an undergraduate student..Can’t believe that I’ve completed my foundation. It’s been terrific so far. The knowledge, friends, activities and lecturers- couldn’t ask for more. I’ve high expectations for myself for Fall 2009. This Fall, all of us will applying to U.S universities to transfer our credits. I wrote a very lengthy entry this time. Don’t know how to shorten it. Anyway, happy always!! Stay away from strangers!! Appreciate the people around you!! Bye….See you!!

“LIFE IS LIKE A LEARNING PROCESS AND MAKING DECISIONS IS HOW WE LEARN. IF WE NEVER FACED ANY BIG DECISIONS, WE WOULD NEVER LEARN ANY BIG LESSONS.”

ADFP Graduation Night!!

2009-06-17T19:24:00.000-07:00

Well, pictures say a thousand words...You can see I had a lot of fun during the dinner in Carlton Hotel... I'm now preparing for my last two tests: Psychology and introduction to Microeconomics..
Tomorrow will be sitting for Psycho test and attending the Multilingual Public Speaking...Hope, we can break the Malaysian Book of Records...Gambateh people!! My turn to speak is during the evening session. I would have to rush to Cemara Hall right after Econs class...

Concerning the ADFP night, it was a success...Thank you for attending and making the night lively...

See you guys!! Good luck for exams and all the best to all speakers of the Non-Stop Multilingual Public Speaking... Will be writing on it soon...

Highlights of the Month- June

2009-06-12T05:26:00.000-07:00

Two more weeks and the entire short sem. ends...

Higlights for this month would be exams, ADFP night, Multilingual Public Speaking, ATUSA election, Opening A New Club and MMS.(juniors are coming in two weeks time...)

**Just a little announcement: To those who are participating in the Non-Stop Multilingual Public Speaking please be informed that there will be briefing on the 17th of June at Dewan Beringin at 10-12noon. If you miss the first session, don't worry for there will be another session on the same day at 9pm at Cemara Seminar Room. Pass the message to your friends concerned. Thank you!!

Right now, my friends and I are struggling to open up a new debate club. To work towards the proposal paper and all other formal procedures are excruciatingly killing my precious time. But, I believe the efforts we put in wouldn't be in vain if the opening of this new club is approved. Hope it will be...

My target for this sem would be to study for exams, have a great camping in the end of June, avoid over-spending( that's because I'm financially unstable..hehe), and to prepare for a whole new Fall Semester... Time flies very fast and all too soon I will be an undergraduate student (should it be a hoorayyy or....... a sigh.....). Wondering... I guess a hooray!!!!

Hoping my next post would be on ADFP Graduation Night where I'm hosting the show...
Emceeing has been a big part of my life so far... Mostly in high school and the tradition seems to continue...

Have a nice weekend everyone!! Good luck to all who's running for ATUSA posts. See you!! Bye!

Placidity & Felicity(felicito)

2009-06-02T02:16:00.000-07:00

On Thursday, I headed back home. Economics research paper was the only pending work. Planned to procrastinate until Monday. I felt totally relaxed during the weekend. I went out with my family once and with my friennds once and that's it. The rest of the weekend was spent quietly in my room. I got to talk to my mother. Felt like it's been ages since I chatted with her more than thirty-minutes. The conversation over the phone would only last about three to five minutes. So, one of the night, we talked until it was midnight. It's great to share stories to someone you love the most. She told me how's life been for her and I told mine... Both of us had a good chat...

We went to Jusco to have lunch(Saturday that would be)..My sister was not working on that day so she could follow. Then, we went around the mall to find ourselves in a spectacle shop for my mum was interested to know her power of her aging eyes. When the salesman said that my mum has to wear spectacles, we weren't surprised. She has complained of headaches previously. We decided to buy her spectacles. And there goes another one who wears spectacles in my family. Considering my basic family only, I'm the sole survivor for not using glasses. I sense the time for me to wear it is soon. No!!

And not forgetting, I went out with my friends to a cafe near my place. It's good to meet friends and let them know that they are still remebered and will always be! All of them have maintained their personality- no changes at all!! That's good in a way. They're unique. Some are humorous, witty, fun, smart, mature, insane at moments, polite, and etc. You know which one you are..hehe... Although the gathering was short, it was meaningful. Will be seeing you guys for my Deepavali!! Make sure you guys appear in my house on that day... I will be inviting.....

All to soon, I'm already packing to return back to hostel. It was a good stay. I've filled myself with sufficient energy for another month before I return back to restore. Mondays were normal...Class...Preparing for presentation on the next day....

And Tuesday! Today! Had Psychology presentation. "Date Rape." "You Do Not Want To Become Another Statistic." The preparation for the presentation leaves a lot of sweet memories!! And thank you to all involved.. And to my group members: great job you guys!! You guys were awesome during the show!!

I'm still in library: trying very hard to complete my research paper. But the power of "facebook" and "you tube" is impeding me from completing my work...

Summer is coming to an end....Three more weeks.... Looking forward for ADFP night..."A Night To Remember, It's Not Where It All Ends." See you there!!

Good & Bad

2009-05-27T02:39:00.000-07:00

It's been exactly one week since I posted my previous entry. I've been busy since last week. The magnitude of busyness is not showing any sign of decline. Yet, I choose to go back Seremban tomorrow. Been missing home.

This week is like a study week. At least up to today. Monday, I had Psychology test. And today, I had Economics test. There's definitely ups and downs in one's life. My downs are too many right now. Economics test would be one of it. I'm afraid of the results. It wasn't difficult yet I'm unsure of so many questions. Sad...

However, my depression did not last long. I went to swimming class as usual(Wednesdays). The tutor asked all the students to display what he taught last week. He complimented me to have improved so much in a short period of time. Hooray!! The compliment repressed my depression and motivated me to do better.

There would be a longest non-stop Multilingual Public Speaking held in my campus. This event is organized to break "The Malaysia Books of Records." Being a part of it, makes life hectic. Other than that, I'm muddling with assignments to complete before the due dates. Research paper would take the longest time. Not only must one read the entire article on a topic concerned, one has to choose the appropriate information to be inserted into one's research.

Currently, my psychology group are working towards our presentation on next Tuesday. Our theme for our presentation would be "Say No To Date Rape," "You Do Not Want To Become Another Statistic."- the themes might be cliched but there are effective for awareness amongst students. So, why change??

And the American Idol 2009 is..... Kris Allen!!
Kris Allen won!! I have no comments. I didn't watch!! Thought Adam will take the title this year. The results are unpredictable for two years!! Underdogs seemed to be favored by Americans. But, both Adam and Kris would have great careers in the future.

In a day, many events can bring happiness and sadness to you....
Good and bad are perfect substitutes.
It works like Yin & Yang
It's up to us to change the negative feelings into positive ones,
And it's also entirely up to us to maintain the positive feelings.

Everyday can't be sunny, there will be rainy days too. So, prepare an umbrella to counter the rain.

A Satisfying Day

2009-05-20T05:02:00.000-07:00

Wednesdays are fun! Usually most of us anticipate Fridays than any other days, but I, on the other hand look forward for Wednesdays. The reason is simple- no class. Thus, Wednesdays can only be fun if time is well-managed. Today, for instance, I woke up at 8. After taking a quick breakfast, I started my readings on economy of Cambodia for my Economics research paper. It lasted about two hours. Then I continued reading my novel, "Middlesex," which I ought to have completed long ago. (Sigh...)

Never realized how time flies and there I was shocked to see it was 1p.m when I decided to stop reading my novel. I quickly made a simple lunch for myself. (What else if not instant noodles). After washing my plate, I rushed to pack for my swimming class. For your information, this is my first official class with a tutor from UiTM(Universiti Teknologi Mara). The organizing committee have arranged a bus to ferry all the students to our intended location. Most of us are beginners and we have very little knowledge about swimming. Once we arrived, our tutor(forgot to ask his name) promptly ordered us to change into our swimming attire. For the first fifteen minutes, our tutor has briefed us about the rules and regulations in the pool. He appeared strict in the beginning and as the lesson progressed, I realized my assumption about him was wrong. He's a great man who is willing to teach his neophyte students(most of us, not all) how to swim with great patience. We were also introduced to some breathing techniques and floating positions.

The first lesson was on breaststroke(I'm unsure of the spelling). He first thaught us how to use only our legs while our hands are at rest. It was exciting because all of us were given personal advice by the tutor. This way, we can identify our weaknesses and correct them. For me, my third step of the breaststroke has to be finetuned. About 4p.m, I'm back to my hostel. With weary faces, we strolled into our rooms. Due to the exhaustion, my legs dragged me into my bed. And I woke up at 5p.m(only an hour of sleep.) I wanted more sleep, but forced myself out of my bed for I had a lot of work ahead of me. Laundry was one of it. In my previous entry I told you guys that I went to PMMS. During the entire course, I did not wash my clothes. All I did was pile them up. And I had to deal with all of them today. And I did. After all the scrubbing, hanging and drying, I bathed. All of a sudden, I remembered borrowing a graphic novel- Watchmen, from my friend. I read about twenty pages or so. I am too ambitious this semester. I just want to do everything(even wanted to study Chemistry ahead of time for next sem but starting to leave the idea aside). Haha..

Then, dinner. And now in Cendana Cafe posting my next entry. After this planning to study Psychology for there is a test next week Monday. It's been a great day. I'm truly having a lot of work to be done for this semester. ADFP graduation dinner is drawing near and there would be a lot of work too. At the beginnig of the semester, I may have lamented how boring this sem is, but it's no longer the same case. There is also another camp to attend on the 24th of June.

I definitely prefer to do something rather than just wasting time. It's just the way I am. Since
I've enough things to do for this semester, I would not pursue or participate in any other activities in the shortest time. I felt like a dictator- dictating my sensory organs and not allowing them to get sufficient rest.

That brings to an end of another pictureless entry. Sorry, if it's too wordy. Have a great week!!
Hope to be writing on something interesting soon!! Bye!!

PMMS( Pemantapan Minggu Mesra Siswa)

2009-05-16T05:11:00.000-07:00

It's been quite a while since I blogged. The reason is I attended a 3 day course: in the road to become a facilitator for the MMS(Minggu Mesra Siswa). This course is a necessity to prepare us (the participants) to become good facilitators to our juniors. So, I've been busy for this whole week because busy completing assignments and doing only "A LITTLE" revision for the coming tests.

It's definitely worth attending the entire course despite the hectic schedule. Firstly, the organizers(lecturers) have done a great job. Loved most(if not all) of the activities conducted. I've learned many new games. Met many new faces. Got to know more seniors. To my group members, Wolverine: you guys were very helpful in making the entire course fun and exciting.

I'm anticipating the arrival of juniors to INTEC. Looking forward to lend a hand especially in the long-course program registration.

We, the Cendana dwellers might move to Cemara later than expected date due to the abundance of studence in the latter hostel. After staying for three days and two nights in Cemara for the course, I think I'm no longer enthusiastic to move there. The room conditions are better-off in my current hostel. The funny thing is that, I took pictures with all my roommates already- thinking that we will not see each other that often in Cemara!! It turns out that we will only move there around July... Here are few pictures of Cendana and my current roommates who are great and superb companions since last year. Signing off now. Bye!!

Moving On

2009-05-08T05:53:00.000-07:00

Hi there! It's been such a boring week. It's like a routine to wake up in the morning and just be blank on what's next. Probably, will be different when the sem progresses into mid-May.(more assignments would be coming in at this time.) Let's hope so.(Don't think I don't like to have free time, but it's just too much of time is being wasted.)In the previous post, I have mentioned of moving into a new hostel. But, we were told to hold on until 17th of May before going to Cemara. Really wanted to move in fast and get it done. Looks like another two weeks here!

I've been studying very less over this week and been watching Heroes nearly all the time.(completed season 3 in three days). I've also started researching on my new assignments and projects. After being such a workaholic for most of my life, it feels different and abnormal to just have so much of free time. Still getting used to that.(just for two months).

Frequent trips back to Seremban willl be made for I have no classes on Fridays. Had a lot of time to reflect about my performance. The grades for Spring semester had been disclosed. I'm satisfied with my grades. Just thought could have done better in Calculus.

Planning to join a competition soon next month..Will disclose about it soon if I've really decided on it. Haven't read the news lately. Wondering what had happened to Influenza A? My roommate had a high fever the past three days and it might be another case of dengue. The numbers are just rising and there is no sign of it declining. I'm wondering how he's doing back at his home. If you happen to read my blog Rui(roommate), get well soon!!

On Wednesday, all biotechnology students attended a career talk related to Biotechnology filed. I have to personally thank the speaker for he had enlightened myself about the path of ours after tertiary education. It was truly informative and effective. At least, I have a clear picture of the options available after I graduate.

Lastly, to all my friends in INTEC: congratulations to those who had done well in your Spring Sem and cheer up to those who hadn't.

"Happy people roll with the punches. They know from experience that everything changes. Today's good fortune may vanish tomorrow, today's crises may turn out to be tomorrow's good fortune"

Beginning of Summer Semester

2009-05-03T20:45:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Those two words were the first two words that I hear when I woke up this morning. The night before (about 12 midnight), I have received many calls and numerous messages reminding me how old I am......I'm 19!!! So old..... Anyway, thank you for all the birthday wishes....I'm truly touched that you guys willing to spent some of your precious time to wish me...

Today, I woke up late- probably still in holidays mood.......

New semester......New lecturers.......New friends (not many new friends yet)..............

New subjects......New class...

This semester I got to take Introduction to Psychology and Fundamental to Economics(I think it is known as Microeconomics).
Basically, this time around it would be pretty much relaxing with only 12 hours of classes per week.( total opposite of the previous semester).

It has been such a short day.... I came to INTEC, checked my name and was already in the class studying the first chapter of Psychology... Expected sort of a briefing before this semester begins....(sorry for omitting the subject of this sentence...just wanted to minimize the usage of "I.") One sad thing is, the psychology and economics class are not given any name..... how can a classs just be known by subject codes???? When my friends asked my class's name, all that I could utter was, "Well, it is like...ummm... psychology and economics class....but I'm in the A group. Confusing!!
Besides that, I was sad for I wanted to take Calculus 2 this semester but was not lucky enough... Sigh... Looks like I've to wait until my first degree. But I'm sure that Psycho and Economics are going to be exciting to learn as well.

Guess what, today Cendana got all fogged up again!!! Again!! Apparently, there were more than three dengue cases over the last two weeks...My roommate was one of them...He was hospitalized for 6 days in hospital....Pity him that his holidays were ruined. But the important thing is, he's fine and has completely recovered. Too tired of complaining about the fogging over here in Cendana....(after all is for the benefit of the students.)

The good news is my roommates and I are probably moving to Cemara(hostel) the end of this week or beginning of next week if everything goes as planned.

Watching Heroes season 3....In progress....Love Heroes because it is one of a kind....Original....

Finally, let's call it a day!!

Can't wait to move to new hostel!! Aiyo... have no pictures again....(this is the problem when one has no digital camera or a phone that has bluetooth.) Never mind, I promise to upload pictures of my current hostel and new hostel in my next entry....

Bye Bye!! Will write again soon.....

Dengue VS Influenza A

2009-05-02T04:07:00.000-07:00

I was reading News Straits Time a few days ago and I realized the gravity of swine flu or now known as Influenza A (definitely a better name). All humanity is under great danger!! The alert level is just one step below the highest level. (NST Friday May 1,2009.) Malaysia is still free of it, but that shouldn't be a reason for the people and the government to be oblivious of this pandemic that has killed approximately 170 people in Mexico alone.

I'm actually concerned of dengue over Influenza A for three people from my hostel have dengue fever. The dengue cases in Shah Alam are quite high. This can be reflected from the number of fogging in the area that I live in. Even Cendana(my hostel) have been fogged more than five times throughout my stay there for eight or so months. Selangor records a high dengue cases compared to other states. While the world is concerned about the Influenza A, I am worried for the safety of Cendana dwellers........

I am back to my hostel after one week of break. I had sufficient rest and was very pleased spending most of my time in the comfort of my bed.....
It was when I'm back to hostel, had I received the news about three students were diagnosed with dengue. It would be a breaking news here in Cendana, especially tomorrow when all ADFP students return from their respective hometowns just to find out that they are living in a blacklisted area for dengue(arghhh...)

Wil pray for everything to be back to normal......
That's all for now..... I will update my next entry on my new classmates and a whole new semester......Can't wait for it.... The following entry would be on moving to another hostel(happening in the end of May) and lastly I also plan to include some useful information about ADFP to help out the juniors( soon to join us) to clear their doubts of this program....

Till then....take care!

Sem Break

2009-04-27T20:21:00.000-07:00

Hi there! I'm back home to Seremban!!! After nearly a month of never going back, I miss my family and my mom's cooking. This one week break is necessary for all ADFP students of INTEC to rejuvanate our energy after completely losing it all during the Spring semester. I arrived to Seremban last Friday. The moment I arrived home, I found my legs dragged me into my room then on my bed.....I had a long hours of sleep. Probably because I deprived myself from sleeping to study for Speech Communication (it is worth not sleeping the entire night).

Home sweet home!!

The next day(Saturday), my secondary school teacher and I went for a dinner and exchanged current updates about ourselves. Sunday is more of a family day where I stayed at home and spent most of my time chatting with my parents about my experience as a college student. I had a lot to say. Getting ten hours of sleep everyday is comparable to living in a paradise. I realized what I misssed the most in the last four months.

Yesterday(Monday), is no difference. All I did was sleep, chat, read(a story book that I manage to grab from a friend of mine), and watch tv..... Disappointed with the American Idol Results Show- Lil Rounds and Anoop Desaai(hope I spelt his name correctly) were sent home. Well, I did not watch their performance last week, but I feel Lil should have stayed longer. Anyway, America has decided!!!

And today(Tuesday), I managed to rise up earlier than usual and took a bus to State Library. Right now- typing my second entry whilst looking at the people in the library. What a sight to behold.....Everybody is studying but me..... Most of them were so absorbed into their studies while I have time to enjoy writing and reading non-academic stuff....Hooray! Praying that my CGPA would be higher this sem compared to the previous one.... One subject is putting me into nightmares----- CALCULUS.

My plans for the remaining days of the week??? I planned to invite my friends for an outing but I promptly cancelled the thought for they are busy with their studies and I don't want to distrupt their hectic Form 6 schedule. Sure enough they are rushing to finish the syllabus for particular subjects so they would be able to revise later... Good luck my dear form six friends...I know you guys can manage it!!!

Probably will be going out with my mother and sister to do some shopping on Thursday. On Saturday got an invitation to Suhashini's (my school friend) birthday but I couldn't make it for I'm going back to Shah Alam on that day(sad). Sorry Suha!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! (2nd May).

As for me, my target of my short break would be completing three novels that I brought home in the hope that I will finish all three. My rate of reading is dropping again- thanks to the television in my house. I am also reading online articles about mutation because I feel the one I read for Biology final exams was too brief. Before I forget, SPM certificate is out and I need to go and get it at my secondary school/high school (SMK Bukit Mewah). So basically I have three undone work for this break:

1. Read three novels. 2. Continue researching on mutation 3. Get SPM Cert.

This holidays has also introduced me to Susan Boyle . For those of you who have no idea who Susan Boyle is, you would want to watch her in YouTube. (worth watching).

Watch out!! The Swine Flu!!! Newly found virus originated from Mexico and has spread till U.S and Canada.. An epidemic that has taken a considerate number of lives. All we can offer to those involved is our prayers. Hope that new vaccine/s would be developed to stop the spreading of this dangerous flu.

Spring has just ended and summer is striding its way. Looking forward for a new semester and new classmates! Hope everything goes as planned.... To all INTEC students, use this short break to tighten your family ties and use this break beneficially. To everybody else, stay away from trouble and live today as if there is no tomorrow! Bye!!! I hope I will be publishing my next post soon.... And sorry for I have no pictures to post this time! See you!!

Ending of Spring Semester

2009-04-20T07:03:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!! Experience is not always the kindest of teachers, but it is surely the best! I had a great experience in this Spring semester although it has been a roller coaster ride for me.

HISTORY ( bear with me )

Before I move on, let me introduce myself. My name is Murugesh Rao. I am currently studying in International Education Center (INTEC). American Degree Foundation Program (ADFP) in INTEC is a great exposure for me of how the American education system is like. I am in the verge of completing my spring sem (2nd sem) and moving on with the summer sem. I would first like to extend my apologies to my Boston (previous class) friends,all my high school friends and National Service gang for I am not able to blog our wonderful moments together. You guys are always in my heart. Our experiences together will always be cherished. My goal to start up this blog would be to update my friends on what I am up to. Besides that, I would like to share some of my ideas regarding certain current issues. I will also post my writing works so that I will receive constructive comments to help improve my works.

I would like to recap on my entire Spring sem experience. I was placed into Honolulu (popularly known as "Hornylulu"). It is a hectic semester with many presentations taking up most of the students time. Nonetheless, the presentations help us to develop our language and communication skills. There were a few events held where I was involved in most of the activities. From what I can recall, American Indulgence Week is one of the first few events that occured during this sem. I can't exactly remember when it was held, but I remeber it was extremely fun, exhililarating and exhausting!!! Some of the events that were organized during this week are "Class Parade" and "Halloween Night." It was a complete privilege to be a part of something new and refreshing. Besides American Indulgence Week, there were also other interesting events that were held. For instance, Speech Night and "Malam Ko-PLN." These events were also a blast but they took a lot of my studying time. However, looking back at it now, I appreciate what I have gone through for I am enriched with experiences. Since it's the last week of Spring semester, it wouldn't be complete without me giving my "thank you" speech. I would thank all the lecturers of Honolulu for being great tutors to all of us. It is wonderful to have y'all as our lecturers. Really had a lot of fun! To my beloved classmates, I take this opportunity to say I love you guys for making this sem a fantastic experience for all. I am pleased and thankful for your support during "Speech Night." It really boosted my confidence and enthusiasm on that night. Thank you!!!! Good luck to everyone who is flying in this coming August. Hope you guys will have a great time in the States. Wait for us next year!!!! We may know our destiny, but our ultimate destiny is unpredictable. One can never say for certain what all of us will be like in years to come for destiny is indeterminable. That brings to why I chose my blog's title as "Ultimate Destiny" for all of us are unsure what we will be like in future. The uncertainty always perturbs me and causes me to seek answers to doubts that I have. Through this blog, I hope all of you guys (my friends) will be able to keep in touch with me regardless in whichever part of the world you are. I know that there is always facebook but blogs would enable you to be filled in about what one is curretly up to. So, all the best in achieveing the "Ultimate Destiny." Be optimistic.... for optimism is the foundation of courage! Great hopes must be followed by great effort guys..... Be good in U.S. And that brings to the end of my first ever entry of my blog. Hope it is not too bad. Forgive me if there is any typo. I'm too listless right now to edit my work (hehe...). To everybody out there, may god bless you!!!

And here are some pictures that I would like to share with everybody........